#10yearchallenge: Steven "SvZff" van Zadelhoff viert zijn 40ste verjaardag in vorm van zijn leven

#10yearchallenge: Steven "SvZff" van Zadelhoff viert zijn 40ste verjaardag in vorm van zijn leven

Voormalig WCOOP Main Event-winnaar Steven "SvZff" van Zadelhoff viert vandaag zijn 40e verjaardag en in het kader daarvan gaf hij een overzicht van zijn eigen #10yearchallenge. En we moeten toegeven; het is inderdaad een flinke verandering. Op zijn eigen Facebook-pagina heeft hij een flinke post geplaatst over de afgelopen tien jaar.

Hij begint met te vertellen dat er natuurlijk ook een 'bragging'-deel in de post zit: "Obviously there is a bragging part in this post, i think we should all be proud of the things we worked hard for. But i don't want to shy away from the struggle and pain. If i can make a single person more motivated to go after the body/ life and other things they want, i am already happy."

Het verhaal gaat over de volgende foto, waarin hij zijn veranderingen laat zien:

#10yearchallenge: Steven "SvZff" van Zadelhoff viert zijn 40ste verjaardag in vorm van zijn... 101

Het begon allemaal in 2001, toen hij 22 jaar was: "Having just finished a catastropic year of trading on the stock market, i found myself more than broke ( from $200.000 back to -$15.000, back then a lot of money), half depressed and burned out and fat. Very fat. Having always been a bit chubby around 90 kilo's… this time i managed to peak at 107 kilo's. Needles to say not my best year. Unfortunatelly no picture available haha. But the pain of failing so hard was hardly bearable. No, mental coaching was not available yet lol. The feeling i got when i looked in the mirror didn't make it any better. I consider myself very lucky to back then have had a good safety net of friends and family and an oldschool boss/mentor. I managed to get my life back on the rail by going back for the last year of my Business Engineering degree. Told my buddies i was not gonna be in the pub for a while. Went on a simple calory restriction diet. Still lots of bread but terribly hard and heavy work in a car company and 3x / week free-fighting did the job. I got my old body back, and a bit fitter actually around 82 kilo I think, but just with a bit more skin :) A year later i had paid off my debts and took the first 100euro i had again to the pub to buy my buddies a plate of beer. Pfew."

Hij gaat vervolgens verder met 2008, zeven jaar later: "Having had some succes in the upcoming poker-boom... i had celebrated life quite a bit. Old habits had gotten the best of me again (loads of drinking/smoking/eating bad) and here we see me with a beer on my head. My first time on the Bahamas was a memorable one. I managed to get heads-up vs Stevie Chidwick in a $1000 freezout, which we chopped. The rest is history. What also seemed like history was the body i was dreaming off. The beer we see on my head and all the Bahamamma cocktails didn't make it any better. Life was good, but the pain of the unworthyness was always lingering in the background. We all have our own stories and possible projections of the core-unworthyness that can originate from 'little' things that went wrong earlier in our lives. For me these were always being too fat to be attractive and not smart enough to get really succesful. It would take me another 5-10 years of struggle and fight and experiment and failures before i would start to understand how to tackle these demons. But anyway, back to work."

Twee jaar later, in 2010, ging het redelijk mis met Van Zadelhoff: "After getting back from the Bahamas trip, i got the brilliant idea, that if i would just starve myself, that i would finally loose the fat i hated so much… and then the unworthyness would also dissapear!! Right!?.... right?.... hmmm. Needless to say, this wasn't my best year either. The starvation-diet (way too heavy calorie-restriction, and later hardcore veganism) did it's aweful work perfectly. Not only did it melt away all my fat. While going at it, it pretty much also melted away all my muscle too. What it didn't melt away was the core-unworthyness. On top of that old pain, came now the realisation that there had to be something else wrong with me. If it’s not the fat on the outside.. then it must be something terribly wrong on the inside… No clue what it was back then ( I didn’t even know the term core-unworthyness) but I do know it hurt. Badly. The governement of the Netherlands taking my life savings for tax reasons and the non-stop heavy sharp stinging pains in neck/shoulders and locked up jaws didn’t make it any better. Poker also went bad, no suprises there. No healthy mindset, no strong body, so offcourse also no strong brain. I was very afraid of making mistakes, which were plenty. If you start to prevent yourself from making more stupid mistakes by getting more conservative and careful and even more scared… it’s tough to play a game for a living that requires you to bluff a LOT and to experiment endlessly to find the best solutions… I survived because I was sponsored by Everest Poker back then. I did what I could to promote them, had a very good and fun team, and a lot of cool pokertrips, which gave a bit direction."

Een jaar later kwam de 'doorbraak': "Then something happened in 2011 that we know now, would change my life forever. Walking through the hallway of the World Series of Poker in the Rio Casino in Las Vegas… I saw a book in a book stand that caught my attention. It was called “The mental game of Poker – by Jared Tendler”. I looked through it quickly. Mindset. Fears. Focus. Hmm.. sounds interesting. Fear of failure. Haha, luckily I don’t have that, that shit’s for pussies! I put the book back and kind of forgot to buy it. Until I got back home after the World Series and I was confronted with my online poker carreer going sideways/down for a while already. I manned up and ordered the book. Boy am I happy I did. I started reading, and within the hour i started putting the pieces together. Fear of failure.. in Dutch it is a word that makes us feel very weak… like the shaking 8 year old girl that is afraid to show her piano skills: FAAL-ANGST. I started seeing more and more elements of this in my life and my carreer. I quickly kept on reading, and within the day the feeling of fear and the pain of the confrontation with my fears, slowly started to make space for another feeling… the HOPE that THIS WAS IT. I actually knew it straight away deep down inside. Because I knew I had never been afraid of hard work, this guy now could show me where to actually work on!! Hihaaaa! And all of a sudden, I realised back then that I was gonna get everything in life I wanted after all!!"

"I also knew straight away, it was gonna take me at least 5 years of crazy hard work, confronting myself with my deepest fears, having to do all kinds of weird therapies, endless meditation/ visualisations and affirmations. More books to be read then I read for my whole degree. And more years of trying to shrug off the unworhtyness and not being succesful yet, by just keeping my eye on the journey and try not the be discouraged by the endless failures and mistakes that the carreer of a poker player has with no exception. But I knew I was ready to at least try! You know the saying; I may not be the strongest, I may not be the fastest… but I’ll be damned if I don’t try my hardest!!"

"Fast forward to picture3: The plan to reshape my whole carreer and my whole life worked out pretty nicely. Endless study on learning process, getting better at poker and life. Lots of dating and getting more and more social skills, and actually starting to love my life and myself. Guess what? If you manage to outwork your old fears, you can actually become somewhat good at what you do. I still needed an absurd ammount of luck to acutally win the Online World Championship of Poker that would give my carreer the next jump. Because of the new opportunities this would give me financially, I decided to approach a world class player for a coaching deal, which he luckily gave me. The results of this are now slowly starting to come in, but I wont hide that this again would take a lot of struggle and practice haha. Where I also still struggled, was weight management. Life was good, poker was good… so why not get a bit lazy right? In my defense, I ran into some injuries that prevented me from training hard. But in hindsight I could have prevented these injuries probably."

Begin vorig jaar kwam hij tot de conclusie dat hij de volgende stap moest nemen: "So, to work we go. After the trip to the Aussie Million in 2018, I decided that enough was enough. If I was ever gonna get that body I had always dreamed off.. It was gonna be now or never. I locked myself up behind YouTube for a couple days to watch instruction video’s on deadlifts and squats. I had clocked in a LOT of hours in the gym and even the squatrack in my life. But I more and more started to realise that I had suffered from a disease that I now see most people suffer from in the gym: The Fuckarounditis! (@Martin Berkhan). Luckily I can now consider myself a learning-proces expert almost more then a poker player, so we went for it. I made notes and a plan, and went back to the gym for deadlifts. The rest.. is history visible in the next picture."

De laatste foto is vandaag genomen en hij kan natuurlijk zeer tevreden zijn over het bereiken van zijn doel: "My 40th birthday and I can quote one of my childhood hero’s: “I LOVE IT WHEN A PLAN COMES TOGETHER!!” (for the poker kids: Hannibal from the A-team, that was a group of awesome guys driving a black van, saving the world)."

"Can’t be happier with the results of the powerlifting. I must also add that I did more study and research on nutrition and food addiction than I read poker book and books for my studies combined. But you still need to go lift the weights for it to get the results you want  I have absolutely destroyed all my previous records on squat, deadlift and benchpress, and expect to get into the 1000-pounds Club anywhere this summer. I also managed to keep studying very hard on my poker game and mental game, which resulted in a level of confidence and skills I have never felt before. I wasn’t bluffing when I announced my upswing 2 week back on Twitter. The first decent score came in Last Sunday already, but it is nothing compared by all the good result you guys will see from me the rest of my 40th year of life and the ones after. This is gonna be the year of the Viking, mark my words!"

"Aaaaaanyway! This post got a bit longer then planned haha, it’s March1 2019 now 4 in the morning. I am gonna catch some sleep, because A) tomorrow is gonna start at the squatrack, probably with a new PR again B) tomorrow there is a good party waiting to celebrate my 40st year of life and this amazing life in general!!"

Hij sluit af: "I want to close this post with thanking everyone that has in whatever way contributed to my growth and succes and hapinness. I hope I can do the same for you, and if not, than for others. Life is amazing. Hopefully you guys now know what to do if there is something you want in life… BELIEVE IN YOURSELF AND GO FOR IT BECAUSE YOU ARE WORTH IT!!! Love you all! :p"

Comments

  • JhrGert JhrGert

    Ik weet het allemaal niet hoor. Wat heb ik nou eigenlijk gelezen?

  • Hihihi Hihihi

    Mcbackhand schreef

    Dit is een beetje zoals al die Nederlandse voetbal biografieën. Heel lang verhaal, tikkeltje narcistisch, niet zo heel boeiend verder..

    Just my 2 cents

    Ach. Ik heb met veel plezier Geen Genade gelezen destijds.

  • Fert Fert

    Go go steven

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